“We accept the love we think we deserve” Stephen Chbosky from The Perks of Being a Wallflower
For a long time I felt undeserving of love and this quote expresses, in general, what my default way of thinking and loving myself looked like.
I made poor decisions on love based on my poor self image.
Since I saw myself according to how the world, friends and family labeled me I assumed I was worth very little, however when your identity is in Christ you feel fulfilled because God formed you in your mother’s womb and expended great care for you to be here. Jesus died for you.
Jesus’ love is enough and it is something that as believers grows with and in you ( the holy spirit) as time progresses. I accept His love for me and His personal sacrificial death and resurrection for my benefit.
I was fortunate enough to be publicly adult baptized and spoke a few words to this affect.
Do not reject Him. Most people (including my former self) think they are unworthy of love but this is very hurtful and destructive to God, Jesus and ourselves.
Even if we weren’t raised in a Christian home or saw love demonstrated in a healthy manner growing up, our ability to accept love need not be limited by what we can see or have experienced because God’s love (which is experienced on a soul level) is , contrary to any self limiting beliefs, real and perfect.
When I struggle to see myself the way God sees me I find reassurance from the Bible, talking/praying with God, listening to worship music, my friends and boyfriend that God loves me despite what I sometimes consider my glaring weaknesses.
I know that God loves you in this space too.
Be responsible in accepting the love of Jesus.
From personal experience I loved someone very much for years but I left him one day because I just couldn’t accept the love he was giving me. Was I young and petty? Definitely! Am I happy God is saving me for something even better? Yes but I realize that I can’t keep doing things the way that I was in the past. Rejecting love comes at a great price to ourselves and to others.
I pray that you would accept the wild, crazy, sacrificial, satisfying , dependable and enduring love that Jesus offers us everyday and in every moment. I pray that His grace and mercy would permeate every level of your soul and that you would not accept anything less than His passionate love in Jesus name amen.