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Deserving of His perfect love

“We accept the love we think we deserve” Stephen Chbosky from The Perks of Being a Wallflower

For a long time I felt undeserving of love and this quote expresses, in general, what my default way of thinking and loving myself looked like.

I made poor decisions on love based on my poor self image.

Since I saw myself according to how the world, friends and family labeled me I assumed I was worth very little, however when your identity is in Christ you feel fulfilled because God formed you in your mother’s womb and expended great care for you to be here. Jesus died for you.

Jesus’ love is enough and it is something that as believers grows with and in you ( the holy spirit) as time progresses. I accept His love for me and His personal sacrificial death and resurrection for my benefit.

I was fortunate enough to be publicly adult baptized and spoke a few words to this affect.

Do not reject Him. Most people (including my former self) think they are unworthy of love but this is very hurtful and destructive to God, Jesus and ourselves.

Even if we weren’t raised in a Christian home or saw love demonstrated in a healthy manner growing up, our ability to accept love need not be limited by what we can see or have experienced because God’s love (which is experienced on a soul level) is , contrary to any self limiting beliefs, real and perfect.

When I struggle to see myself the way God sees me I find reassurance from the Bible, talking/praying with God, listening to worship music, my friends and boyfriend that God loves me despite what I sometimes consider my glaring weaknesses.

I know that God loves you in this space too.

Be responsible in accepting the love of Jesus.

From personal experience I loved someone very much for years but I left him one day because I just couldn’t accept the love he was giving me. Was I young and petty? Definitely! Am I happy God is saving me for something even better? Yes but I realize that I can’t keep doing things the way that I was in the past. Rejecting love comes at a great price to ourselves and to others.

I pray that you would accept the wild, crazy, sacrificial, satisfying , dependable and enduring love that Jesus offers us everyday and in every moment. I pray that His grace and mercy would permeate every level of your soul and that you would not accept anything less than His passionate love in Jesus name amen.

What Happens When You Remind Yourself The Lord is Near?

When I remind myself that the Lord is near everything changes.

I usually have worship songs reverberating in my mind — the one that comes to mind now is “Keeper of my heart” by Kari Jobe.

It is such an amazing worship song meditating on God’s splendor in the universe and the fact that He is forever good and faithful to us personally.

I receive eternal hope when I meditate on the Lord and all He does for me. This includes waking me up every morning and putting me to bed at night. It is the blessing of good relationships and learning. Eating and drinking. Coffee dates and good books.

It is  for receiving me back when I’ve foolishly let my feet and mind wander off on their own only to find myself back where God wants me and back where He is always waiting for me to humbly ask Him for the things I need or want.

I am just reminded how much I and the world need Him. God is everything I’ve ever wanted and He can turn even the crummiest day around. We must constantly make the effort to …

“Draw near to God and He will draw near to you” James 4:8 NKJV.

Recently I asked the Lord to come near me and it quieted my soul in joy. If you are feeling far from Him ask Him to be with you. If you are close, keep enjoying the Good Lord. Praise Jesus.

If you need help with this, please feel free to reach out, much blessings!

New Year, Same Jesus

Happy 2018!

Welcome to those looking beyond themselves this year for something more. I hope you will choose to learn about putting your faith and hope in Jesus and His saving work on the cross!

And a big Hello to those walking with the Lord already!

This year, as I’ve been busy making my own plans and scrolling on my phone I realized I really need to “plug” into God.

Just like plugging a cellphone into a socket (we do it because we know it will power up our phones), we can come to God the same way needing to spiritually re-charge – trusting in His power, mercy and grace to restore us.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. Proverbs 16:9 NIV

If God is not your source of strength, read about how God protects King David in 1 Samuel and 2 Samuel from many enemies. Additionally David’s psalms are strikingly beautiful as they show his total dependence on God. He talks to God about everything, including when he is afraid and things look impossible which is why I imagine he is a man after God’s heart.  David seeks and prays and sings to God in the psalms even when he feels desperately defeated.

“My help and glory are in God —granite-strength and safe-harbor-God— So trust him absolutely, people; lay your lives on the line for him. God is a safe place to be.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭62:7-8‬ ‭MSG‬‬

In order to be closer to God and His plans we have to seek Him. God is readily accessible and available to us in all seasons through faith and we can go to Him in prayer being confident that He hears us. If you need help with this or are unsure of how to seek God questions/comments are welcome!

This year let’s put His kingdom first and practice trusting Him with all our hearts.

God’s plan will look different for everyone. What is it God has asked for you to Trust Him in this year?


Suicide, depression and the Hope of Jesus

Godly hope in the midst of celebrity suicide

I was scrolling through a Facebook feed when I noticed that Linkin Park was trending. Next I saw an article about a tribute to Chester Bennington –a tribute? This isn’t good… come to find out the singer of the rock band Linkin Park had taken his own life – suicide.

I cried. I could scarcely believe someone who I had connected to so well during my lifetime through his music had just taken his own life. It’s shocking and terribly sad.

I received the Meteora CD for my 14th birthday as a present from a friend. I listened to it in my CD player over and over again. It was easily my favorite album.

Even when I went camping I still brought Linkin Park with me – letting the older generation have a listen because I wanted them to experience it too.

At times, as an adolescent, it felt like Chester was going through some of the same things I was experiencing — pain, disappointment, skepticism, bitterness and anger.

From the foreword introduction with the sound of breaking glass that segways perfectly into the first loud rock song to Chester’s singing and growling and Mike Shinoda’s rap rhymes the whole album is so raw and palpable. I found this kind of emotional honesty breathtakingly refreshing. Chester was able to express his emotions  in a way I wish I could at the time. I admired him speaking so openly about the not-so-niceties of the human condition. Chester references in one of his songs looking for “somewhere I belong”; maybe you too are looking for somewhere you belong.

If so, keep reading!

I want to let you know about a place with an open invitation where we can choose to belong. This place is not a location you would find on a map but it’s a faith journey instead into an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ as Lord.

What do I mean by this?

I’m inviting you into (if you don’t already have) a real relationship with Jesus, the living and loving Son of God.

His testimony is given to us in the Bible.

Jesus was born of a virgin and lived a holy life preaching of His Father in heaven and how God wants us to live: loving God and loving one another. Jesus then died on the cross as a blood sacrifice for all people in order to reconcile our broken relationship with God and offer us afterlife. Jesus chose to die because there are profound consequences for the ways in which we act. Jesus chose to pay that price for us.

From the beginning of creation people have rebelliously discarded God’s ways in favor of pursuing our own desires. The reason living out of our own desires is hazardous is because it leads us in circles of pain and disappointment in a selfishly stagnant loop unable to contribute good to anyone: God, ourselves or others. Every action has an eternal consequence whether it is immediately seen or not.

….Maybe you’ve cheated your way in business

….Maybe you’ve lied in a relationship,

….Maybe you have an addiction

…. Or you have hurt someone’s reputation by gossip.

God says that we must adhere to Jesus and stay connected and rooted in Him to be productive in any area of our lives.

““I am the Real Vine and my Father is the Farmer. He cuts off every branch of me that doesn’t bear grapes. And every branch that is grape-bearing he prunes back so it will bear even more. You are already pruned back by the message I have spoken.

“Live in me. Make your home in me just as I do in you. In the same way that a branch can’t bear grapes by itself but only by being joined to the vine, you can’t bear fruit unless you are joined with me.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15:1-4‬ ‭MSG‬‬


In this world where dark spiritual forces want to keep us stuck and living in a place of anguish, there is hope, forgiveness and a blossoming fruit bearing life found in the healing grace, love and mercy of the Lord Jesus Christ. 

We don’t have to stay in the middle of Satan’s lies about our identity, meaning, purpose or worth. 

Suicide and depression touches everyone in the community in some way, whether you’ve experienced it first hand or know people that have, do not choose to endure it alone. Please seek professional help and the support of your local church/friends and family.

Even not knowing Chester personally, loosing him so tragically still resonates with me. 

You are a valuable creation of God’s. God loves you and has your best interests at heart. Stay safe and God Bless you.